I’m often hard on myself because I think I haven’t used my time wisely. I could work all day, and I still feel like I haven’t done enough. I’m sure we all feel this way. I suppose that is part of the human condition.
But my brain takes it a step further, and there are days where I feel as if I’ve wasted large chunks of my life — because I didn’t get serious and settle down soon enough. Although the judgment reached an all time high after the Lynch Syndrome diagnosis, I’ve come to this conclusion: These thoughts really are tiring… and boring.
While it might feel like a giant challenge or perhaps, even, not the best use of my time (according to whom, I don’t even know!), as NaNoWriMo 2016 begins this week (on 11/1), I am going to remind myself of a recent Gratefulness.org quote:
Your journey has molded you for your greater good, and it was exactly what it needed to be. Don’t think that you’ve lost time.
— ASHA TYSON
I think I can safely say that the challenges I’ve encountered in the past two years — Lynch Syndrome, clinical depression, menopause — have actually inspired me to grab life by the balls and get to it. “It” meaning everything I’ve put off because it wasn’t the right time or I was too scared. Not any more.